Original - saudade

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Title: saudade
Original
Rating: teen and up audiences 
Notes: crossposted on rainbowfic 

vipers on my back
crawling around my neck
they're my past in black
they want my heart for a snack

I find peace in cyanide
my solace in upcoming suicide
my chest ripped open wide
haunted with nowhere to hide

I yearn for times long gone
before I was undone
became a rotten swan
meant to wail until dawn

miss the days I was innocent
before my mind became violent
my thoughts, indecent
before I wrote to vent

I wish I wasn't me
wish there was nothing to see
I wish I wasn't me
but who I'm supposed to be